terrible feeling..

i just write this to express my feeling 2 u in this short paragraph...

i missed u and felt terrible because i think that u doesn't miss me..i miss u is a terrible but at the same time,it is a sweet feeling. i will be sitting around wondering if i meant anything to u?Thinking if u ever cares about me?.Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's u,i miss stayin on the phone with u all hour of the night.Looking out of the window hoping that u will surprise me by appearing my door. im sitting in front of the television but thinking of u..when laying on my bed, thinking of the last time we were out together, talking about everything, our dreams,plans,future. Logging on to the internet hoping to see u online,but when i realize that u isn't online and i will start worrying if u okay?but..i know... you're happy rite now,.. but here,i feel emptiness n jealousy ;(...

p/s; sorry about that;(..hm its ok...cause my love 4 u is growing up each day 4 u sayang;) ... i hate my terrible feeling!..n actually i juz want 2 say that i miss u sangat2.. n i must keep remanding my self what everything is,i respect ur privacy n i know,not just me that really need u...i know..