I’ll go crazy, in just a matter of time
I know I’m going to kill myself
You’ve made me lose my mind
So should I blame my insanity on you?

Angin
tolong sampai kan salam ku pada nya
Awan
tolong lindungi diri nya untuk ku
Tanah
tolong kabarkan langkahnya pada ku

dulu kau tawarkan,
manisnya janjimu..
yang ku sahut itu dgn segenap hatiku.
hilangnya dirimu,
menusuk hatiku.
hingga ku memilih,cinta yang fana.
perginya cintamu,
merobek hatiku,
hingga ku terjatuh dalam harapan.

i miss my childhood..~

Marissa miss the days when......

-believing in fairy tale endings.
-feeling safe, careless and free,
-the feelings of being invisible or unbreakable
-believing all the lives of those I have met and loved would last forever
-the days when I used to have a very nice baby-skin, with not a single pimple
-the days when the boys, including me, used to write and send love notes to girls during class.. xD
-Candy and trading cards were currency
-barbie doll were fun
-Cartoons didn't suck
-Jobs were for old people
-A ten page report was a lot
-Doing "hard time" meant being grounded for a week.
-School was free
-Guys had higher voices than girls
-atok n nenek was still alive
-Everyone was going to be an astronaut or doctor when they grew up
-"adik, it's time to get up and get ready for school<3">
-Mama was the only woman I needed to fear "once a month"
-the possibility of broken bones and scrapes didn't stop me from having fun...
-crush with the boy next class..its fun~ even dnt knw what meaning of love dat time..n the most thing is,i never gets hurt so bad..like i do now..
-not having to worry so much about how I look.
-having an all day play and rest without having to worry much about school works and serious stuffs.
-the days when my abah n mama used to favor me with almost anything I want.
-being worry-free, the innocent days wherein all I did was to think about eating, playing, and having fun. (act there's a lot more things I miss, but cnt remmber now..haha~ ;D..)

dat time, I always felt that it would be so gr8 when I grow up, I wud have no school, wud be having lots of fun,the happy ending love,freedom, but now, I felt childhood was so better..-_-

Somehow I wish at least for some time, it wud be so gr8 if I get my childhood back,having fun,n to learn again....so,myb i can fix all the mistake dat i make today n b the gud gurl like abah n mama want me to be n i can b a perfect gurl for the guy i love ,cause, i lost him now n its hurts me.....~~ ...sob..sob... i want my childhood life !!!

ohh.. marissa..

its GOOD being strong..but its SUCK too when people know that u're strong n they think it is okey to HURT u AGAIN n AGAIN.~ (+_+)

im not afraid to try again...im just afraid of getting hurt for the same reason~